Like the fabled bird rising from the ashes, I am once again at the keyboard. Looking at my most recent post (a year and a half ago!), I realize that to identify as a blogger would be a misnomer. I think bloggers are supposed to post in a more timely manner.
What have I been doing for eighteen months? Obviously nothing worth posting. In fact, for a year of that, I’ve buried myself in reading. I’ve devoured more books than I would care to admit to. The relentless sameness of everyday living with MS provides a fertile ground for literary escapism.
For the last six months, I’ve been providing moral support to Husband who is receiving treatments for lung cancer. He’s doing great now but will still need bi-monthly immunotherapy infusions for at least a year and probably longer. Besides being grateful that the radiation and chemo seems to have done their jobs, I’ve learned that two people with health issues living in the same house is really…let me find a less vulgar expression…”very challenging.”
But with his slow return to normalcy, and his improving energy level, I find myself mentally improving right along with him. I wish I could report that the MS is improving, too, but I can’t. After twenty years in, we try to co-exist peacefully but its debilitating effect still occasionally gets the better of me.
I never knew such words could wrathfully come out of my mouth when I am forced to ask for help after failing at an easy task. It pains me to admit I rely on hubby about 90% of the time. So for him to be down physically leaves me very vulnerable indeed.
But we carry on, each with our own burdens. I think there is supposed to be something noble in all of this, but I’ll be doggoned if I can figure out what it is. So, like the Phoenix, I will soar above it all and once again try to find interesting things to write about dealing with MS.
It’s either that or this ol’ bird will finally get her wings clipped.
Recent Comments